It was year 2010. I was beginning my last year of high school, and I was pretty excited to finally finish it and begin my studies of something I was really passionate about at that time – computer science.
In fact, I wanted more than just studying. I wanted to experience studying abroad, and I thought that that London would be a really exciting place to try it out.
I imagined living in a dorm with a roommate, meeting many awesome people and going to crazy parties, all while learning from one of the best universities in the world.
So, I researched which universities I could go to and I applied to some of the best ones in the UK, including Imperial College London.
The application process was pretty long, and I had to take quite a few different tests along the way, including a pretty hard English language test and writing out my CV.
I’ve put a lot of work into researching how to write a CV with no experience and eventually I wrote a very long story which seemed to work pretty well, as I eventually got this e-mail:
I got an official offer to study at the Imperial College London.
There was a trick however – I had to score very high on my final exams in order to get in (I had to get pretty much straight As).
At first, I thought to myself “Yeah, I can totally do this”. Then I spent hours researching cool places around my college, amusement parks, clubs, accomodations, and the time kept running by.
When things got serious and I had to actually start learning for my exams, everything became very real though.
I started thinking about my friends. My family. My cat. Yes, I have an awesome cat.
And because of this, I felt very paralyzed. Instead of studying for exams, I’ve spent hours and hours playing video games to get my mind off my fears.
Eventually I even began to skip school and avoid exams because I wasn’t doing as well as I hoped I would.
I was digging myself a grave. Instead of buckling down and getting serious about studying, and asking others to help me along the way, I chose to just avoid everything.
In the middle of this downward spiral, I decided that I wouldn’t go to London and study there. My explanation for that was that I didn’t want to leave my friends behind and be a big financial burden to my parents (studying in UK is pretty expensive, especially if you live in London).
But honestly, those were just excuses. The real reason why I was doing this was because I was afraid to fail.
I was afraid to give it my all and still not get the grades the grades that I wanted.
I always considered myself a smart person, and getting the harsh truth in my face that I wasn’t as smart as I thought I was was just too painful to imagine.
As I decided that I wouldn’t try to give it my all, things got even worse as I completely lost my motivation for everything. Eventually I got to a point where I couldn’t even attend the final exams because my grades were so bad that I didn’t pass a couple of subject.
Because of this, I had to actually repeat my last year of high school.
Now, I was actually a complete failure.
I didn’t commit to something that I really wanted, I actually disqualified myself.
I’ve made many mistakes in my life, but I don’t really regret any of them.
What I do regret is not trying, and that’s why this is probably the biggest regret that I have in my life.
I don’t want you to repeat the same mistake that I did, so I’m hosting a FREE 5-Day Success Bootcamp where I will show you a specific framework to overcome the self-doubt and move from being paralyzed to taking massive action and getting what you want with no excuses. In fact, I will show you how Jaka used this framework to overcome his own barriers and landed a job that he loves.
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